Bad Choices?

Psst, hey.  Heeeeyyy, can I tell you a secret?  When I go on holidays I like to cheat.  Do you?  I bet you do.  And I bet you LOVE it too.  Sure, you feel shame afterwards and manage to return home with a great deal of self-loathing, squashing the desire to do it again.  Do you save it only for when you are away?

I tried to stop it once.  I planned and planned for it.  I was successful for one whole trip.  But then the next time I left town it happened again, and I realized I was an addict.

To chocolate.  To chips.  To ice cream.  To cheese.  To (duh duh duh) GLUTEN.

Oh, is that not what you were thinking?  I know you do it too though.

This is how it starts…

Day #1 – After Dinner.  Ok, I’m on vacation and I deserve a treat.  I can have an ice cream cone with the kids.  I mean, its only right.  This way I’ll be part of the fun, the memories we’re building with the kids.  Sure, its just a little Salted Caramel ice cream in a waffle cone.  Its fine.  We walked to the ice cream shop, so its like it practically never happened.

Day #2 – Lunch.  I can totally have a coke with my lunch.  Its ok I’m on holiday and it will just be this once.

And then…

Day #2 – Snack.  These chips look so good.  I’ll just have one.  Oooooh but they are so good, just a few more.  Well, the kids shouldn’t eat the WHOLE bag themselves.  I should help them.

Day #2 – After Dinner.  I know I had 3 glasses of wine with dinner, so I shouldn’t have dessert.  The wine is my dessert.  But its creme brulee.  And that’s gluten free so I am practically staying on plan with that (even though it is entirely comprised of dairy AND sugar).

By now, what can you do?  You are in!

Day #3 – After Dinner.  Oh, are we walking to the ice cream shop again?

Day #4 – Lunch.  If I say no bun and order a turkey burger, that’s ok right?  Then I can totally ALLOW myself 1 (or 5) of those amazing onion rings.

Day #5 – Breakfast.  TODAY I am getting back on my plan.  The egg scramble with roasted veggies is super on plan.  The spinach and coconut water smoothie was exactly what I needed.

Day #5 – After Dinner.  What?  Did we just pass the ice cream place?  Oh did you guys want to stop there again?  Alright.  Ok.  I had that spinach smoothie today, so I deserve it.

And so on and so on.

Now we’re home and I’m in detox.  Except for the leftover bag of chips from the car ride.  I mean it would be a waste to NOT finish them, right?  Owwww, my tummy hurts…

I totally can't eat just one.

I totally can’t eat just one.

A New Year

Every December 31, we join with friends, family, loved ones and plan a fresh start for the New Year.  Lose weight, break bad habits, create good habits, make some sort of change.  The trick to all of this is how we feel on January 31.

Like many new mom’s my list is not all that inventive – lose that last 10 lbs of baby weight, eat better, exercise, spend more time on educational pursuits with the kids etc.  Its funny though how in this process I seem to have found another resolution for 2013 – to rediscover me.

The past 7 years have been incredible – the arrival of two shorties has made our family a home.  We are blessed by these two little ones that amaze us with personality traits so like our own yet personas so clearly unique.  Over the past 7 years, my career has grown by leaps and bounds and I am grateful for the opportunities and experiences I’ve had in this time – lots of good, some bad but a bucket load of learning.  The only concern is that juggling 2 kids, a home and a blossoming career can be a feat!  Managing the time for all of this means the things I like to do in my spare time have fallen by the wayside.

Cue the eye roll for all other Mom’s out there.  I know, I know – wah wah wah.  ALL Mom’s without exception face this no matter what.  Life changes after kids, no doubt about it.  So this is not a complaint but more a realization of how much simple pleasure I was able to get from a yoga class or a date night on the mountain skiing with my Love.

As laying in reclined mountain pose in said yoga class, it hit me.  My demanding career and busy family life is a priority – but making some time for these little things for me can actually make me a better Mom, Manager, Momager.

Revolutionary thinking this is not, I realize.  But it is revolutionary for me.  So away we go with the intention that the resolutions of 2013 including the most recent addition to the list become the norm.